3 Trust in the Lord and do good.
Then you will live safely in the land and prosper.
4 Take delight in the Lord,
and he will give you your heart’s desires.
5 Commit everything you do to the Lord.
Trust him, and he will help you.
6 He will make your innocence radiate like the dawn,
and the justice of your cause will shine like the noonday sun.
7 Be still in the presence of the Lord,
and wait patiently for him to act.
Don’t worry about evil people who prosper
or fret about their wicked schemes.
-Psalm 37.3-7 NLT
These verses, especially seven, has been shared with me several times by different people in the past several years. Although verse seven is the verse they quote, I had to add the ones before verse 7 to make sense. It is so easy to see what is going on around me and be despondent. I can’t say I understand why people can get away with the things they do. I have questioned God on several occasions why do the wicked get away with all they do. I am not perfect. I make mistakes. I am a sinner. I am also saved by grace. I am grateful for God’s amazing grace and mercy.
I also ask God often how it is that those who try their best to serve Him and do what He asks to get all the rubbish thrown at them. I know the adages that God never gives us more than we can bear (which is actually out of context according to the Bible as it is He won’t let you be tempted beyond what we can bear), and that God has better plans for me so I have to go through difficulties to get where He wants me. I am struggling to understand. I am trying to get to the point of acceptance but it is not easy.
Yes, I trust in God. I know He is with me. I believe that His strength gets me through each day. I am grateful for friends and family who are standing by me. God is providing for me. I take delight in worshipping Him. I love worship music, singing, and just being in His holy presence. I am glad to be able to go to church again and spending time with fellow believers who also have questions on this journey. It’s refreshing to know, I’m not the only one.
I struggle with giving things to God and not fretting over those things. My nature is to analyze and think over and over again about those things that I have given to God. I worry about what lies ahead, I try to be realistic in what my capabilities are. I need to work on trusting God to work things out because I can’t do this on my own. I can’t see the future (of course, no one can). People are always telling me to not worry about tomorrow but get through today. I find that easier said than done.
I know there is a reward in heaven for all who serve the Lord and have accepted Him as Lord and Savior of their lives. I do believe that justice will come, I just wish it would come sooner than later. Many times, I have fussed at God (yes, I do believe it is okay to whine at Him every now and then, if we can’t be real with God, who can we be real with?) about people getting away with things contrary to His Word and not suffering. I have complained time and time again about the things we go through, especially, when I have been taught that we must be doing something wrong to have things go bad, or that God is testing our faith and if we please Him, things will get better. All I can say to that is “grrrr.” I have left everything I had, given of myself, and then some to serve the Lord and do what He asks. I am not perfect, I make mistakes, I fly off the handle sometimes when things don’t go the way I wish it would.
But then… I think of Job, Jeremiah, and Paul. Job lost everything, his family, his possessions and his health, yet he praised the Lord and trusted Him despite of. Jeremiah suffered immensely, he never got to see the fruits of what he did and people didn’t believe his prophecies (they all came true though). Paul had a thorn in his flesh that tormented him day and night but he counted it a blessing for God’s strength was in his weakness.
I need to seriously take heart verse seven. I know God is speaking to my heart through others to me. I am to be still. Physically, I can’t do much else. Mentally is the challenge. I am a natural worrier as I said earlier. My mind needs to be stilled. I need to do what it says to not worry about those who prosper, etc. I am to be focused on God, being in His presence. I just need to be still, mind, body and soul. This is a massive challenge. I know I can’t do it without the Holy Spirit. Yet, I know I need to. He will act on my behalf. My prayer is for the Holy Spirit to still my heart and mind no matter what happens. My health may fail, but God is my portion, my hope, and my strength for each day. I need to relinquish my need for control over every situation and allow God to be God.
I also need to remember God’s answers to so many of my prayers. He has come through in so many ways. He has changed my circumstances. He is healing me from the inside out. I find it hard to trust sometimes because I want control. It’s selfish; I know. Daily, I have to lay myself on God’s altar and let Him have control. He is God. He controls galaxies and the universe. Surely, He knows what He is doing in my life.
I close with the words to the Lutheran Hymn “Be Still My Soul” as my prayer.
“Be Still, My Soul”
by Catharina von Schlegel, 1697-? / Translated by Jane Borthwick, 1813-1897
1. Be still, my soul; the Lord is on thy side;
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain;
Leave to thy God to order and provide;
In every change He faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul; thy best, thy heavenly, Friend
Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.
2. Be still, my soul; thy God doth undertake
To guide the future as He has the past.
Thy hope, thy confidence, let nothing shake;
All now mysterious shall be bright at last.
Be still, my soul; the waves and winds still know
His voice who ruled them while He dwelt below.
3. Be still, my soul, though dearest friends depart
And all is darkened in the vale of tears;
Then shalt thou better know His love, His heart,
Who comes to soothe thy sorrows and thy fears.
Be still, my soul; thy Jesus can repay
From His own fullness all He takes away.
4. Be still, my soul; the hour is hastening on
When we shall be forever with the Lord,
When disappointment, grief, and fear are gone,
Sorrow forgot, love’s purest joys restored.
Be still, my soul; when change and tears are past,
All safe and blessed we shall meet at last.